Time passes so swiftly. It has been a tough year for me without my little Dolly by my side. Perhaps I can say it has been my toughest year yet. I've lost a special family member. The kind you can never replace with another. I never knew that a dog could make such great impact on my life. She was not just a dog. She's my beloved little sister who loved me as who I am , my best friend who was always there by my side, a true loyal and faithful companion in times of loneliness, a comfort in moments of sadness and an angel that came and did wonders in my life. So sad that their lives are too short compared to us.
On 16th May 2018, the day that I will never ever be able to forget in my life. The day that gave me immense amount of pain from a separation. She succumbed to cancer and left us. The pain and sorrow that I felt on that day is still the same till today. I'll never be able to get over it till the day my soul leaves this world. This year we decided to have a small prayer just to remember our little girl. To show some respect and love to a soul that loved us all so much. it was a terrible day to start. I could see the sadness in my siblings faces. Such great amount of happiness she brought into our lives that she took it away with her just like that!
I woke up that morning, sat on the couch just staring at her pictures that we kept separately in the living room. Many memories of her were just running on my mind. I cleaned her photos and stuffs and my sister decorated her photo with fresh yellow flowers. There was a tiny candle lit. The kind with a special fragrance. She took the effort to prepare Dolly's favourite dishes. A few kinds of meat, rice, banana and some sweets too, served on a banana leaf. We prayed in silence with the shivan mantra played in the background. Tears were just rolling down my cheeks. I stood a few minutes looking at her, now in a photo. I thanked her for all the wonderful years we'd been together. I seek for her forgiveness if ever I had done any mistakes and I said the usual word I use to say to her every single day for a hundred times literally ... I LOVE U CHUPI!
Its still unbelievable that she's no more and will never return again. It's a crucial moment in my life, especially living with kidney failure and I badly need her by my side now. I knew it will never happen yet at times it feels like she's watching over me. I believe she's there guiding and protecting my whole family like an angel, waiting for us till our time comes. I hope when that day comes and as I close my eyes to rest forever, she'll appear before me and we'll be able to run side by side, reunited at the rainbow bridge. I'm waiting for the day where I could hug and kiss her again. I hope there's a place up there called heaven. Where there's meadows, fields and flowers. A beautiful garden for us to run around and play happily once again.
"sometimes memories sneak out of my eyes
and roll down my cheeks"
~ Unknown Author ~
~ Unknown Author ~
